2 posts tagged “nervous wreck”
yesterday was a day of me feeling even worse than i've felt lately. i ended up spending about four hours in the emergency room. needless to say, my health is just kind of deteriorating. as soon as i was actually admitted to see a doctor, i was in so much pain they were just like, "here. take two vicodin." for those of you who don't know me very well... i really don't like doctors, and i especially don't like emergency rooms. i don't resort to either unless i absolutely positively have to. i prefer staying home and letting my illness just kind of work through out. or doing that whole natural remedy thing.
let me just say, that yesterday's (un)health experience not only scared the living soul out of me but it was one of the more painful things i've had to endure in years. luckily, my "diagnosis" wasn't as bad as i imagined it would be. i was really pissed off to see that once we got out of the emergency room that i wasn't allowed to pick up my prescription for two days just in case it goes away on its own. this is one of those ailments where it just isn't going to go away without some kind of medicine.
i'm really glad my mom went with me to the hospital. thankfully, that calmed me down a little. especially after we were admitted. and i'm also glad ela came over after we came home. it was nice to have someone there.
never have i been so stressed in my life. i feel like i've proposed to someone and they've taken the time "sleep on it" and "ponder it over." let's stick with the wedding analogy: i'm currently at the part where you just want to be rejected already so that you can beg and plead and fix whatever it is that's wrong with and try again. but i haven't even got an answer. we put in papers to buy a house, and this isn't just any house, this house is absolutely gorgeous with features that you're just not going to find on any given house. it's been on the market for three days now. and we've put in an offer for the full price that they asked. but i still worry. i worry like hell. because i do not want this to slip through my fingers - it's like losing the one.
i'm a nervous wreck at the moment. i hope getting married will be easier than buying a house. this is just absolutely too hard on any one given person's psyche.
